Is it possible to know you still have love for someone, and still care about their wellbeing, but not want to talk to them, even if they seem in need?  Maybe I'm just telling myself that it is because it kills me to speak to her anymore.  Then again, we've been over for two months, I feel ready to be myself again with or without her as any part of my life, so should she still be able to put it on me to cure what ails her?  Not surprisingly, my having to continually work to cheer her up was a large part of the reason things ended, yet she never understood that and still sees me as selfish for ending things on those grounds--it was just expected that I take care of her.  So I'm coming to believe that no, I don't have to fix her anymore because it hurts me to do so.  If we can move on to be friends on a semi-normal basis I would love to continue to be a part of her life, but if we continue this cycle of "I love you, I miss you, come back to me" and "You're a selfish asshole because you didn't return my 5 am phone calls the last two nights" I think I can live with her considering me a selfish asshole.  I'd love to hear any opinions on this matter though, because if I truly am the selfish ass I'm said to be, it would be a good deal to revamp my outlook...

--Nick